Monday, September 14, 2015

dawn to dusk of life...

As strong Amber sunlight breaks out at dawn...I wait patiently outside the airport bidding goodbye to my parents once again. Staying away for last 7 years from parents has a feeling of a different kind...and maybe the thought never crossed my mind that time has passed by in a jiffy....thanks to the "be practical...avoid being over emotional"  value your family ...being strong was always more important. 

Everyday as the sun rises over the horizon life takes a new meaning a new dimension. But we stay oblivious to the change...because we are focussed into our lives, focussed on being successful or winning smaller battles. Growing up is so much similar to a day...starting at dawn with little or no idea of the rest of the world... And then slowly u get to know the world with more and more knowing u reach a peak a time when u think u know the whole world... Just like the sun in noon...and then starts the evening a pleasant experience where u slowly give into the sunset of life...while the sunset happens...however dimming it may be it leaves a mark on your start losing over all that u gained at dawn...eventually to melt into the night with short glitters of the light of memory as stars...u can't do much now but gaze into them. And then suddenly u just doze off into your dreamworld relaxed and yet hopeful for another life to enrich the planet..

Saturday, July 25, 2015

We are all born alone...

We are all born alone...through the eternal silence of the womb to the noisy pandemonium of this world.
It's surely not easy journey for human life to strive through the constant battle of survival not just through the means of the unknown but also through the social constructs built by humankind before us to help us guide through this world in a so called sane manner.. So we survive and outgrow with the constant feeds of social shocks to keep our so called ego struggling through the  web of cultural complexity of human kind. We get our identity...or maybe the one which we think is ours and try to stand by it to make our existence meaningful. But little do we imagine that most of what we have and what we have built in our damn small heads is the consistency of our flown down thought processes from the past.

Who are we is then the question... Or maybe what are we...just humans in a part of a process that repeats itself over multiple lives...or are we really special after all... Are we something that never was...or just messengers in the pathway of the passage of time...are we mere passengers who travel between the journey of a system where the road is mere illusion that makes us feel that things are moving behind and we are progressing ahead....

Being grown up is not a step which we reach all of a sudden with all the necessary inputs in our heads...its more of an illusion a process that we engage into and keep being in the constant process of adding to what we are...or maybe we keep spending out what we gain to the world...mere exercise of struggling  through the same webs that we as humans have woven over the years to make our lives more successful than our counterparts...a blank madness of competition to survive and label ourselves as the best survived as against anyone else in this race called life..

Friday, June 12, 2015

A mirage of images...

A mirage of images i dont want to follow
Those brutal damages i dont want to swallow
These paths untrodden i have walked before
the winds keep blowing but there is no shore
I have not any reasons to cry
But then in moments i get lost why?

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

The Journey called 2014

Why a journey...well it was one of those years i travelled the most...and trust was worth the experience. Travelling across 14 Cities across the world in a year showed me the variance of life that exists on this blue marble. Each experience was unique, be it educational campuses like IIT Kanpur or IIT Guwahati, or A class cities like Berlin or NYC or Singapore.The flavour of each city reflected on the people of the city and their way of thinking. Even for that instance in India...going from Big cities like Mumbai and Delhi ( which are no more new to me) to small yet renowned cities like Haridwar or Kochi....each had its own spice an aura that made me reflect our existence on this planet.

It all started in January when me and my wifey went to the sea shores of pondicherry...the French architecture of the city and the Indian-Foreigners of  Auroville took us back to the present past. Come february and some bad news struck and we had to fly down to delhi. Delhi is like an independent woman in starch clad saree, she takes her pride in being what she is...but at the same time...has the old relics keeping her humble...while on the way to was the religious out-cry outflowing everywhere...the realities of how religion in todays world has become a medium of survival was evident there...perhaps god was lost out there...i felt god must be laughing from above...I did my bit of self satisfying religious activity by drinking a few drops of ganges ( on the cleaner side)...the river has a charm for sure...dunno about the location. Maybe it did do some magic on me for the rest of the year...depends how we structure our beliefs. Little did i know 12 months in future the movie "PK" would sum up my emotions in a movie.

And then came March...when i sort of fufilled one of my long dreamt wishes...partially atleast...I went to Germany...Initially in a small yet profound city of Hannover. Hannover as a city had all the mixes of a europeon city...buildings...trains...cleanliness...small roads...big buildings...and yeah amazing cars...I remember stepping out of the airport and looking for a less costlier taxi...because all i saw was BMW's and Mercs...ofcourse later realized.."Its Deutschland afterall". At CeBIT in hannover...i witnessed the scale of technology and sort of enjoyed interfacing with the latest. But yes it was tiring for sure :)...Later went on to the capital...Berlin...the train journey was too good...trains at a speed of 260 km/h was an experience ill never forget. Berlins unique spaces, museums and even their hurtful yet historical past takes you down the historic lessons and makes you feel the emotions they mustve gone through. The city is dual in nature...on one side u still see the westernization while the pride of the soviet stands on the other. I feel ill return back to this city for sure.

Just when i came back from Berlin...i was put on the next gen project.,..working on Google Glass. It was tiring and extended work...but by the end of the surely gave its results. I traveled to another city for the glass project...this time it was Morristown...a dry yet faraway city ...although i didnt explore much of this city...the hangars i got to go added to my list of aircrafts i have been to.
The proximity of Morristown to NYC...brought me back to the big apple. I would say...even after roaming around different cities across the world..I still love this one the most.NYC is confident mixture of talent, riches, glam and above all people from all walks of life...

While returning from NYC and Morristown in a few days i went back to Mumbai. Mumbai is new york city of a different kind...the complexity exists both places...and for any mumbaite..stayin in NYC would not be a challenge. Having grown up in Mumbai...I have my biases for the city...but one thing i have seen over the years is that mumbai is becoming better with amenities. But the life remains Fast and furious.

In august I turned 31...thats a number dreaded for a long time...but maybe as i always say age is a number...its what u did with it matters. And i guess i want to make the most of my growing numbers for years to come.. With the same feel i went back to mumbai for ganpati...enjoyed some old family times and also drove down the bandra worli sealink...I can say...its no lesser than NYC in any sense :)

In October i got an opportunity for a quick 1 week trip to Georgetown, Delaware...georgetown is like any old english has the small European town feeling...The houses the bars take u back in time. It was almost time travel for me. Philadelphia on the otherhand looked very different...its a poised city...i would say it lies somewhere in between Washington DC and NYC...the monumental buildings and the historic relevance is amazing. Especially i loved the art museum and the rocky steps...If there was one word i would associate Philly it would be Determined...Benjamin Franklin has surely planned and thought about the city well...the art quotient also shows a good amount tolerance the city has.

Back from US i was delighted to change roles and become an art vendor for my wifeys beautiful artwork at Soul was tiring but worth the experience of knowing what it takes to sell art.

And as the year was converging i owed my patient wife a vacation. Well better late than never...we sought out for a trip to Singapore.This is a city country...or country-city...but with the features of any big city. Its a clean spic space and what stands out is the accessibility of the city. The city has nicely made tourist friendly spaces which you ought to like. My personal favorite was the Gardens by the bay...which clearly showed how serious messages can be communicated experiencially. All you UX designers out there..this is experience design in the real sense. While singapore as a city is very modern but somewhere lacked a cultural identity of its own. But that could be a mere observation from me...

So back from Singapore I was off to another visit to mumbai...and finally this year ended with some fireworks. Won the second consecutive company wide best UX design award for the Google Glass project i worked on earlier this year. I also got to visit IIM Bangalore as a student...for a short course on Luxury management. Although still in Bangalore IIM Bangalore has the qualities of any top level insititute which sort of cuts you away from the city thats outside the campus. Another place i got to visit in a few days was IIT Kanpur...this place was another campus feel but somehow the scale was huge and worth the efforts...met many young minds and learnt a lot from them as i mentored some of them.

To end the year with a cherry on the cake my wife suggested a trip to Kochi Binnale. It was a exposure i longed for a while since the touch with contemporary art is very minimal in india. It also made me contemplate on questions Art only Aesthetics or way beyond that....the deeper meaning of art was worth the time spent at Fort Kochi...A perfect philosophical end to my journeys across 2014...

Life surely is a long journey...and maybe my trips across the year just extended my horizon of thoughts...or maybe they were just a few stories i could collect and tell all my life... after all be it in US or Germany or india...we are all a part of a greater story in the making...

Heres wishing all of you an amazing come....

 Excuse the length of the blog...but that's what happens when u dont blog the whole year :)

Monday, November 10, 2014

Dragged feet

When are you an adult i beg to ask
Is it when you do every task
Become a slave to money and fame
Put up a face so that you dont look lame

When do you become mature i beg to know
Is it when all emotions you let go
Become an indifferent soul
Put up a mask of worldly role

When do we call ourselves a success
Is it when all relations are in a mess
When life in itself looks at you
and asks back,,,do you still live?


Fake stars
long hours
lost soul
incomplete role
virtual roads
smaller toads
big fish
petri dish

Tuesday, May 20, 2014


Odds...these are not mere speed impeding barriers...
they are ever unstable diving boards...
they are the ones that painstakingly create the human inside you...
they are the ones who shape you into the person you ought to be...
yes these are the odds which may break you down , make you feel the worst
but at the same time which make ready to survive the challenge called life...
may the odds be with you..

Friday, September 13, 2013

Turning 30

Its been long since i wrote something in this space and as i see the frequency of my updates has gone down too....and trust me there is lots to share but no time.

Ever since i have moved on to a new organization life has been in the fast lane. And with that there are loads of other things coming between me and my expression via words...but having said that because of non availability most of my writing has become traditional pen and paper.

So whats been happening...firstly as the title says...i have turned 30...its one of those times when u feel you are now an official adult and yet somewhere deep down inside your heart doesnt want to believe in it. 3 decades are a lot of time i guess...but this 30th birthday of mine was pretty fascinating. Firstly i didnt celebrate it in India...i was far far away...neither did i celebrate it with any of my loved ones...they were far far away..and probably sleeping. Thats because i was in the land of opportunities called USA. It had been a long time dream to be in US meeting my friends and experiencing the life of the much talked about country of this world. Luckily work took me there and that too for a month long.

And just to rewind a bit from the birthday to when i arrived in US. I was sent to Sarasota a small city in Florida down south of US. Hot and humid with rain the place was almost like Mumbai. But one of the most fascinating parts of the shore city was its sunsets and evening skies...something i cannot forget all my life. Perhaps god had his plans to make me happy in a very different way. Sometimes gifts are not about the value but how they make you feel and who better than god to understand this.

The month in US went along pretty fast and with lots of work...but i did take some time off and go to NYC and Washington DC. The euphoria of Times Square cannot be described in blog entries like surely is an experience worth taking once in lifetime. And so is the pride of DC. which is clearly reflected in its monuments. The Smithsonian museums are an experiential package that shows how exhibition design reaches its epitome. And finally the frenzy of NYC as a whole, be it walking down the streets or partying all night, you see a mixture of cultures castes and wonder its called a world has the glitz the glam and the heart to welcome everyone.
I also happened to catch a Broadway show...and that too Phantom of the Opera...which has music that hypnotizes the mind...Broadway is the mecca of musicals and i am happy to have witnessed it in person.

Work went on for a month boiling down to my 30th birthday on which i was working too...and what better than to not have anyone know around you that its your birthday. Not to cut a cake not to blow candles but just sit across a street looking at the sunset and re-living the rollercoaster that life has been...and in my case i surely will say...thank you god...for being there...and making me realize...if its not the best its not the end...its just a journey to reach there...

P.S.: For some visual journey of my US trip...check out my flickr album here