Life---phase 2

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Restarting life....press any key to continue...

if only a restart was that easy.... but when lots of things are sorted out....life seems to be lighter....although running away from feelings has been an old habit...but this time its not running away its more about learning to be patient..... a silent meet with someone can teach u so many things... things about u ...things about the way u percieve the world....sometimes in life i belive taking a pause and looking around helps.... small droplets of happiness need to be lived....she sez " living life one day at a time" well so do i have to...
New challenges ... new place.... new life??? same life in a new way...
i remember shaans song ..."tanha dil" at this time.....but loneliness is a choice not a circumstance,,, culdnt say all that i wnated to... but well...i think i shld give myself some time.... some time to learn to be someone... to reach a height where i can be proud of... my parents can be proud of...and top of all she can be proud of.... if the truth exists let it come out when it does naturally.... i need to give time... time to myself... time to others.... coz time is the greatest test of all....who am i to decide... after all a failure once in that area....
Living alone has always been my motive.... i know others will move on....but i wont...ill owe them all my life... coz not everyone changes lifes....

One girl breaks ur life... one grl makes ur life....but all this, where it takes ur life... is all that u can decide....

happiness comes back... this time with a different taste... its new and its different... but somehow i need to take it slow and easy....coz even this cup is infested with the poison of distance... but will have to learn to live with distance and i surely know where all the confidence will come from......

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